the writeCast

emergence from the mikvah

there is only me,
at that moment.  everything faded,
my mind became singularly focused.

i drew forward in my nakedness
cool water, rising, rising, rising,
i am submerged.
i am floating.
i am emerging.

blessings.
submerging, floating, emerging.

i am rising, rising, rising.

i am a jew.  
   

journey back to sinai

morning approaches; soft wind stirs from an ancient,
familiar place.
is that a voice i hear?  faint and paradoxically clear.

sleep falls away from my eyes, and,
it is as though i stand before a mountain.
i am overwhelmed. my soul in awe. 
morning has revealed my journey,
here to the foot of sinai.  

home.

i have journeyed home,
and pray that i am bidden to enter.

the words of ruth echo across time: 
Don't urge me to leave you or to turn back from you.
Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay.
Your people will be my people and your G-d my G-d.

as the sun crests atop the mountain, i see my people;
my friends, my teachers, my family,
my community.

i have journey back to sinai.
to my home.

rainy sunday morning

thought i saw you this morning,

as i parked my car.

rain pelted my window

heart did the same in my throat.

i watched.  i waited.  i wished.

alas, it was not you.

and i was left

with only 

rain.

wait

Paradoxically.
Time seems,
frozen,
then a motion blur.

What would the airless void of space
compare to this endless moment?

I am waiting,
but only God knows
for what.

questions?

are you still out there?

are you still reading
my work?

are you still thinking
about me?

are you still searching
for answers,
for love,
for passion,
for me?

at times i feel a dreamlike quality wash over me
and an ocean of emotion fills an unimaginably large space
left by your absence.

is it raining where you are?
does it seem so very far away?

has this poem moved you to say hello?

time stretches out before me

time is like distance
objects on the horizon turn smaller
fading, wavering in the setting sun.

seconds, minutes, hours,
days, weeks, months
all passing beneath my feet
as i float further away
till the memory is but a spot
across the distance in my mind.

until finally the curving of the earth
obscures all sight of far away lands
and you are alone, without thought
without memory, without pain.

only time.

gasping for breath

first meetings, i gasp.
handshake.
a smile.
words.

finally,
an embrace,
held hands,
first kiss, i gasp.

defenseless.  living.
feeling, talking,
passion, i gasp.

gasping, gasping, gasping.

struggle, choices,
time, memories,
distance and finally,
disappearance.

gasp.

upon waking

movement.
uncertainty.
am i moving,
or is it something
moving around me?

awe.
wonder.
living.

finally.

Rest

Tension, distraction.
hours of the day
unfolding like light
working, working, working.

then rest.
thank god
for ordained
rest.

laying on my back in the park

where are you?
i wonder, silently.
where?

clouds form and drift
around the world
meeting, merging,
parting.

never passing one another again.

drifting, distancing, dissolving.

seasons come and go.
have came and gone.

we were a cloud for a moment
beneath the fierce heat of the sun.